It’s that time of year!

The kids have really taken to riding their bikes each day! The neighbor has given Cameron a little radio flyer tricycle for the summer days! She loves it, and Aidan loves having someone to ride with. I’m still working up the courage to allow them outside in the parking lot together, maybe next year! We’ll see. Check out the pictures, and I love how Cameron has to stop her bike altogether in order to beep her little horn! But, Aidan is so patient 🙂
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I do believe…

I’m in another slump with blogging. I have a million things I “plan” to write about, and it seems the time to sit and write just never comes around! I was hoping I’d not let becoming a mom again, and church planting journey, and work, and raising two children, and being a wife, and tending to an incontinent dog get in the way of my blogging, but somehow it has. I’m just exhausted and by the time the end of the day comes, I can’t seem to get motivated to write. Hoping I hop out of the slump soon, until then, enjoy summer 🙂
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Summer is here…

I guess we finally are getting our summer! It’s gonna be a hazy, hot, and humid week! I can’t believe how much of these we’ve seen lately either!
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I’m just trying to stay cool and dry at the same time…not sure that’s possible at all? Have a great week 🙂

Lesson Learned

So I’m not sure really how to start this post. I made a huge blunder in life recently! I mean BIG…I am not going to get into the details on it, but trust me, if I did it to you, there would be problems between me and you. I felt horrible after I did it! It’s one of those things that you kick yourself over and over for, and worst of all, it impacts relationships you have for a really long time. I hate those mess ups in life. The hardest part is to move on. You can ask for forgiveness from people and they can say yes, but truth be told, there is a long period before things ever go back to “normal”. With some people things never go back to “normal”. So, in the midst of it all I can say I learned my lesson, so to speak. I hate how sometimes in life you struggle and struggle with the same “pit” over and over. It’s so frustrating, the funny thing is as I went through this it helped me to realize just a little bit more about the love of my Saviour. As I was hurting because of the stunt I pulled (which is crazy because in all actuality it’s the other person who hurts, but somehow guilt makes you feel crazy awful) anyway, at one point, my son, who has no idea what was going on inside of me, comes to me, out of the clear blue, and says “mom, I love you”. Wow!!! I needed to hear that! I needed that so much. Then I started thinking to myself, oh man, one day, Aidan or Cameron is going to find themselves in a situation where they feel awful about themselves and what they did. Ouch! I can’t even stand to think of that day! Then I thought, how I hope they come to me, because, truth be told, there is NOTHING and I mean NOTHING they can do to make me love them any less. I would just want to hold them, and listen to them, and let them cry in my arms. I would just want to comfort them! So that leads me to this thought. Actually a couple thoughts:

1. Sometimes a child no matter how old, needs their mom or dad
2. Amazing to me the love a parent has for their child and how it’s never changing no matter what is done in life (don’t think you really get this until you have children).
3. If a parental love on this earth (which is full of sin and distress) is this strong how much stronger and bigger and mammoth is the love of our Heavenly Father for us? I mean He is perfect love!

Okay, that third one got me good! That’s crazy! He loves me! He loves you! He loves my kids, and your kids, and your parents, and your siblings! He loves us more than we could ever even begin to imagine! That’s crazy, that’s awesome, that’s huge! I know Him personally, He is my heavenly Father, and I have His love ALL of the time!

Oh me Oh my…

Okay, so we have two young children in our house with a third on the way! Some days are so great and other days I struggle to just make it until bedtime. Sometimes I am just totally exhausted. I’m really trying to get some organization and steady rules in place in our home. Michael has always told me “Rachel, you have to be consistent”. This sounds so easy, but in everyday life it’s so DIFFICULT! I have to say, it’s my biggest challenge as a mother. I’ve been reading a lot of different websites on raising toddlers and young children and the final verdict turns out to be: CONSISTENCY! This is one little blurb I took out of an article I’ve been reading:

* Be consistent. If hand washing before dinner was compulsory yesterday
but overlooked today, the only lesson learned is that rules are confusing or meaningless. So make sure you stick to the rules you establish, or you’ll lose credibility. When you do make an exception, explain why (“Your cousins are visiting so — just for tonight — you can stay up an extra hour to hang out with them”).

It’s interesting to see how toddlers (and young children’s) minds work! I’d hate to think that I am the one confusing my child or making them think certain things in life are “meaningless”. I’m praying that God would help me to be more consistent with my children. I have a big job to do and it’s gonna leave an impact for a lifetime, wether positive or negative! So, I need to work hard and be consistent to help give my kids the start in life they need, the positive start they need.

What if…

Just wondering, what if you had $50 a month that you got to spend on yourself? You had to spend it on the same thing every month and it had to be indulgent on yourself! What would you do? Me, I’m thinking I’d spend it on getting my hair done! But enough about me, what would you do?
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Then I found this:

If you are in or near New York city, call 866-7-BUMBLE to reach Bumble and Bumble hair salon and arrange for your free haircut.

Not sure if you know, but Bumble and Bumble is a famous salon in Manhattan! I’m thinking to myself, it’s time to plan a trip to NYC! So now what would I spend the $50 a month on? Oh yeah the train trip and lunch in the city that day!

The Waiting Game

Ever sit by the phone and wait for someone to call you? I am absolutely, positively, by no chance, one of those people. If people say they’re going to call me and they don’t I usually don’t mind at all. Matter in fact, I usually don’t even think about it again. There are a very few things in life that I truly can’t just let roll of my back, so to speak. I’m not a girl to hold grudges, I’m not a girl to get my hopes up much, I’m not a girl who sits and plays the waiting game with anyone really. Except for lately! I can’t say I’m sitting and waiting (cuz we all know I have two young kids), but I can say that I’ve gotten my hopes up. I think in the back of my head to myself “yeah, they’ll do it, they’ll come through, I just know they will. I mean they said it with their own lips”. The truth is, since I don’t usually get hung up on this stuff, when it finally happens and I do wait for a call, it kills me on the inside. I don’t necessarily begrudge the person who said it, but I get mad at myself for allowing this to happen! Life is crazy, it’s short, there’s so much that needs to be done, so why worry about someone who doesn’t come through? Honestly, why wait? I have to move on, I know I do, it’s just hard.

Wonder how God feels sometimes? Is he sitting by playing “the waiting game” for me, or for us? Man, I hope not! Today’s the day, I need to check myself! Am I playing that with God? Cuz it sure doesn’t feel good playing it with others, so I best not be playing it with Him! Are youplaying “the waiting game”? Are you leaving Him in the dust? Cuz He won’t play “the waiting game” for long. After all, life is too short, if we’re not willing to move in life for Him, He’s gonna go find someone else to do business for Him! Lord, may I allow You to use me to Your fullest potential, the potential that You planned me to be. May I not leave you waiting for me, use me to fulfill Your plans. Amen. On that note, stop waiting and just do it, I know I will. Have a great day 🙂phone-call