So Long Insecurity!

I’ve got to get this out in the open. As if you didn’t know already, but the truth is helping your man launch a church is hard work! I thought that was the hardest part, and in all reality, it is, at least emotionally speaking. But now here we are with our church launched and there are just a million or two things that have to be done. Between preparing for CatalystKIDS, responding to emails, working, raising a family, and loving on my husband I have somehow let a little of myself go! Yeah, I know, hard to believe (NOT!!!). Anyway, I read a post from a friend of mine talking about how you have to love yourself from the inside. I do, I think, maybe, a little, possibly?? No, really now, I do love some aspects of myself. But I believe, if every woman sat down and really thought about it, there is some aspect of her life she may feel insecure about! I just know it. The truth is I’ve been dying to start a Bible Study, one where I can be accountable and really dig in, yet at the same time with everything I have going on in my life I just don’t have loads of time. SO, I ordered this book:

and I’m going to take part in the Bible Study on the LPM BLOG and see what God has in store for me! I’m so excited. If anyone out there wants to do this with me, I’d love to see you on that blog and hear from you too! That’s all for now, I have a four year old just waiting to play some “Playmobile” and a two year old getting ready to wake from a nap wanting a manicure! SEE YA 🙂


What fits me these days?

I haven’t written a post in so long I’m not totally sure where to even start! So, I’ll just start with last week! Here we are about 20 weeks into our church launch. I know if you read back to previous posts I constantly strugglewith this: where do I fit into this whole church thing? Really, what fits me in this church as ministry? I know my heart belongs to women’s ministry someday. But I also know that right now my heart belongs to four beautiful people: my wonderful and caring husband Michael, my hilarious four year old Aidan, my fun loving two year old Cameron, and my precious newborn Callie. To be honest, with such a young family my main focus is being home.

But truth be told when it comes to Catalyst Church I somehow found myself right in the center of CatalystKIDS- our children’s ministry at Catalyst Church. Since ministering here I have whole heartedly decided when we are able to have a children’s pastor I will bring them their favorite coffee each and every Sunday and send them thank you notes and make them dinner frequently! It’s a difficult ministry but a fun, rewarding, exciting, and life changing ministry at the very same time. But here is where I’m going with this post. About a year ago I was talking with someone about coming to Catalyst Church…this specific person, whom may I add, I love dearly! Wasn’t sure if Catalyst was where God wanted them. I asked why? (I just had to know…it’s not like me to leave well enough alone, but at the same time my relationship with this person is close enough I could ask why and not be condemned)…the reply was this:

Because I want to know I’m doing ministry for God, that I’m tithing for God, that I’m attending for God. Not for you and not for Michael!

At the time I settled for the answer but I really didn’t understand or wrap my mind around the concept at all. My how things change! This past Sunday, Catalyst Church, had their very first communion service. Our pastor had a special early service for all the people who were working in kids ministry that day (that blew my mind and I loved him for doing that…although I love him no matter what, but that’s beside the point right now). Anyway, I was able to take part in communion, to worship, to examine myself and suddenly, at the very front row of church that conversation came back and hit me square in the face! Why am I serving and serving in CatalystKIDS? Is it for my husband, is it just so the doors stay open each Sunday at Catalyst (how silly I would even think that I alone keep the doors open to something Christ wants in our community, surely if I didn’t do it He would provide! Funny how a girl can forget that!…ummm can I say more of You and less of me) is it for my kids? Is it for selfish reasons? Is it for the wrong reason? OR is it solely for JESUS? OUCH!!! Need I say more? I examined, I begged forgiveness, I asked God to use me like never before. Now, I have this burning desire to spend time with my Savior, to be in that children’ts atmosphere each week, to bring the lost children to Jesus! I can’t wait to spend next Sunday in CatalystKIDS! and to know whole heartedly, I’m there for the right reasons…FINALLY!

Seen this anywhere?

The kids are spending the night with Gramma tonight. So, Michael and I decided to have some fun, we went around town and put some signs out. I’m usually home with the kids when things like this get done because, well, let’s just face it, driving kids in car seats around town can only be fun for so long. Like about 2 minutes! So, with our free time we decided to paint the town Black and White with Catalyst Church signs! I had so much fun, I love this kind of stuff, and who rather to do it with than the guy of my dreams! Now we’ll sit down and watch us some Yankees and sleep in go to prayer in the morning! Good night everyone! See you at Keigwin on Sunday 🙂

Cinema Church

I have really become fond of my church family! I remember when I first moved to Virginia several years ago, I had such a difficult time adjusting. I wanted to be near family and have friends yet I had no clue how to go about it. By the end of our time in Lynchburg, I made the best friends a girl could ever ask for. The women I became close to taught me so much about Christ, about my relationship with my Heavenly Father, about being a youth ministers wife, about being a mentor, about being a wife, and this is just the beginning of what I learned from them. When the time came for us to leave “the bubble”, I remember having to say goodbye. I felt like my heart was being crushed, I felt as though they could never be replaced. The truth is, they can never be replaced, I love them still today, I smile when I think of them, I tear up when I think of some of the times we shared together. My heart is so thankful for them. I am a lucky woman that God would even think of placing them in my life. Well, it’s been over six years since we’ve been back in iceland, otherwise known as the freezing northeast, or Connecticut. I’m finding that God is placing people just the same in my life again! I missed church last week because my children were not feeling well, this showed up at my mailbox!
THAT makes my heart melt! It was such a strong reminder of the friends I had in VA. I am realizing now that I have friends in my Cinema church family that care about my kids and myself. They care about what I’m going through. They ask how am I really doing? Can I help you with anything? What is really going on, Rachel? I see the same type of relationships starting to take form in Cinema Church, that I did when I was so alone several years ago! I love how God works. I am excited to see what I learn through the women He is placing in my life this time around. I am excited to be able to share with them what I have learned from some amazing people so many years ago! I am so happy to have relationships with these people that will be like family! There is something amazing about having a church family that really knows how to act like a family! I hope we never lose that here at Cinema Church! I hope we continue to grow deeper together as friends and family. Matter in fact, I think, there is a pretty good chance that before we know it, a bunch of us will be running around with this somewhere on us!
Guess we won’t be changing the name of our church anytime soon!

some things I needed to be put into perspective…

This past week, I had a couple days where I was starting to wonder…

Wonder about where I belong (yet again) with the whole church planting thing and with life in general. It seems sometimes I want so much, or I want it ALL (to go out with friends, to take part in EVERY aspect of Cinema Church, to work, to go to the gym, to be a mom, to be a wife, and on and on and on)…but honestly, I need to sift through all the “STUFF” I do, and really think about what is most important?

I broke down and talked with Michael about it for awhile one day this past week, and he really helped me put it into perspective. I am so thankful I have him. Then, God went and gave me another reminder HERE!

I’m not wondering where I belong anymore, and I’m not gonna be able to say YES to everything, because frankly this is what’s important to me:


When I think about it, at the end of the day…does it really matter if I met this person for lunch, or went here to support this thing or that thing, especially if the cost is that I lose my husband or kids in the end? No it’s not worth it at all. My first place to make a difference in this world, is right in my very own home! I love when God uses other people to show me something life changing…it makes me thankful for the obedience of others!

Family Fun Night was a hit!

WOW! I love it when a plan comes together! Cinema Church had their fundraiser at Friendly’s Restaurant last night, and it was awesome! So many people came, all the children there had a blast, there was some really awesome face painting, and the balloon artist was OUT OF THIS WORLD! I’m so impressed with how the people of Cinema Church really got the word out about this fundraiser and how we all worked together as a team! It was great from the moment it started until the moment it ended! That place was on a wait for well over an hour of the fundraiser time! So cool, I think I remember learning this past week that if we do the natural, God will do the Supernatural! I think we all learned that first hand last night! My prayer is, that the people of Cinema Church would continue to do the natural, so that God can do the SUPER in our community! Can’t wait to see what else is to come in the future. Thanks to everyone who helped it be a success…

Friendly’s Fun Night!

Okay people, Cinema Church, is doing a fundraiser tonight at FRIENDLY’S on Washington Street in Middletown! All you do is come and eat between 5-8pm tonight! Then Friendly’s will give our church 10% of food sales for those hours! We will have a balloon artist and face painting for the kids! We’ll also send you mom and dads home with a memory for your family fun night! Come have dinner with us tonight, we’d love to see you!
I’ll be getting one of these as my appetizer…and then I’ll run across to the gym later tonight! See ya there!